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December 16, 2019

Red Haired

At my 32 week appointment, the doctor checked our little baby's position. His head was in my ribs.
"He still has plenty of time to turn!" she said.
So I did the only thing I know how to do, which is everything humanly possible to get him to move head-down. I tried spinning babies, the chiropractor, hot and cold compresses, an inversion table---but he never did. London was born via emergency C-section, and an 8 week recovery with 5 small children to care for was not exactly in my plans. Finally, on a Monday morning, two days before I went into spontaneous labor, my doctor scheduled a version. Kyle called it medieval torture, but it was basically the doctor pushing REALLY hard on my belly to manually turn the baby. The pain was excruciating, but only lasted a few minutes, and he turned immediately! I'm convinced it was because of all the prayers offered by the people I love the most!

I played volleyball with my favorite teenagers from church the following evening, even though my mom tried to stop me. Our team was amazing, despite my laughable attempts to waddle towards the ball and bump it with my arms, rather than my enormous baby belly. "You're going to go into labor!" my mom called from the sidelines. "Sounds good to me!" I replied.

I woke up the next morning, got Elle ready for school, and immediately climbed back in bed. I was having some uncomfortable contractions, but nothing I couldn't handle. I'd volunteered to make South African food for a homeschool group London meets with on Wednesdays at 10, and I realized I had to get out of bed right away and get to the kitchen. We made it to the group, and the other moms dished up the food for me, while I sat at a nearby table, breathing through contractions. These lasted all day, until a phone call with my mom around 7 pm.

"No, Mom, I'm fine....Yes, I'm timing them....Yeah, but they're not that bad....I can still talk through them. I'm fine....I-----------" and then I had one of those BIG ones. You know, the contractions where tears pour from your eyes and you can't speak?

Hospital time!

At the hospital, I was told I needed 2 rounds of antibiotics before I could deliver. They wouldn't break my water until 2 am at the earliest- so I laid in the hospital bed, contracting every 2-3 minutes, for HOURS. Around 1 AM, I was sooooo done with the pain and requested an epidural. Normally, the epidural man is my favorite person on earth. The moment he puts that magic medicine in, I nearly leap off my hospital bed to kiss his face. This time, I didn't feel much of a difference after he rolled out of my hospital room. I pressed the "boost" button with each and every contraction, and still wasn't getting any relief. The nurses called him back in after he completed a C section, and sure enough, the epidural was defective. "No problem!" he declared. He would do it over again.

I leaned forward, and he began his work. I suddenly started feeling really nauseous. The nurse handed me a bag, and then came the dizziness. My vision blurred, and I managed to tell the nurse so before falling onto her shoulder. I could hear the nurse and the anesthesiologist speaking, but I couldn't respond. "Give her another one!" I felt a needle go into my arm. "Another one!" I heard once more. I smelled alcohol close to my nose. The adrenaline they gave me made me shake for a while afterward, but I was finally able to rest!

Reid's baby blessing
My labor progressed S L O W L Y from there, likely because the double dose of epidural made me so very very numb. When it was finally time to push, Doctor Vu raised the bed all the way up, so he was actually standing during delivery! After 30 minutes of pushing, the doctor decided to turn our posterior little love, and half a push later, out came a perfect red-headed Garvin boy.
I already cut around his ears! 
 
We named him Reid Kimball. Reid, which ironically means "red haired", and Kimball, after Kyle's brother, who he has the sweetest relationship in the world with, and I was more than happy to honor.
Our first morning home...







What is it like having five children? Honestly, it's better than anything else I can imagine. I really can't believe that we have five---- I mean---- let's be real---- that's a pretty big number. My life is exhausting and crazy and so beautifully fulfilling. I'm so looking forward to 3 weeks of Christmas break with nothing to do at all but hold and cuddle and love this baby boy. We all adore our darling little Reid!


August 28, 2019

London's Baptism

The time was fast approaching for London's 8th birthday--which--when you're a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, is a super biiiig deal. When you're 8, you can choose to be baptized. I kind of love this because it's really up to the person getting baptized. They're making 3 promises: to remember Jesus, take His name upon them, and to keep the commandments. And then there's always weekly sacrament to re-commit/make any personal corrections for the following week. I stood in my bathroom, braiding London's hair, and I asked her, "Hey, Honey. You're going to be 8 in a few months. How do you feel about getting baptized?" And that's when London did the thing she always does, which is blow me away with her grace, maturity, and faith.
"Mom, I'm ready to make covenants with God. I'm ready. I want to follow Jesus."
"Are you sure, Honey? There's no rush."
"Mo---om. Don't worry! I'm ready!" and she smiled and hugged me and laughed, because she knew that I'm not ready for her to grow up.

So the preparations began. There was the interview with the Bishop, the program, the photo shoot with the talented Talitha, the flowers from Hartworks Floral, the food, and the family to invite from out of town. London had control over every aspect of the program, from the talks, to the prayers, to the hymns we sang. But I begged her to sing a special musical number with her dad playing the guitar, and she said yes! It's a song I sing to my kids from the moment they are born, and one whose words always shake me.



I'm trying to be like Jesus,
I'm following in His ways.
I'm trying to love as He did
In all that I do and say.
At times I am tempted
To make a wrong choice,
But I try to listen
As the still small voice whispers:
Love one another as Jesus loves you.
Try to show kindness in all that you do.
Be gentle and loving in deed and in thought,
For these are the things Jesus taught."
I'm trying to love my neighbor.
I'm learning to serve my friends.
I watch for that day of gladness
When Jesus will come again.
I try to remember the lessons he taught,
And the holy spirit enters into my thoughts, saying:
Love one another as Jesus loves you.
Try to show kindness in all that you do.
Be gentle and loving in deed and in thought,

For these are the things Jesus taught.
I want so deeply for each of my children to show kindness in all they do, and to be gentle and loving always. Kyle played it perfectly, and London's angelic voice sang those tender words like only a child who means every word can.

Our family :)

My grandma made this jumper for our baptisms 23 years ago.
I'm not sure how to describe the way I felt that day... It wasn't pride, but I think that perhaps it was pure joy. As I reflected on all those happy tears I cried, I realized that this was 8 years in the making. Every bedtime scripture story, every Sunday at church, every prayer before every meal, family night every Monday, and every quiet, peaceful moment when we shared our faith with our little red-headed-girl, led her to baptism. She is remarkable, intelligent, good, and full of light, and she makes us proud every single day. I wish I could adequately express my love for her in words, but every mother reading this already knows that there aren't words for this kind of love. 










August 1, 2019

Be Kind

I remember many sleepless nights kneeling at my bedside, begging God to give me Anorexia instead.  I would have done anything to take away her pain, to save her so she could finally be free to live the life I knew she deserved. But God didn't, because He had something greater in mind. He was shaping and molding my sister into someone unshakable. Taryn is the person she is today because of Him, because of her faith, and because she fought with everything she had to learn to love herself again. She is a fighter, a hero, and an angel that I can't imagine a day of my life without.

When I look at her life now, I can see the bigger picture. I see her amazing daughter, her kind and good husband, and I see her limitless potential to change the world. I am so proud of her for sharing her story of recovery and for spreading kindness in a world that so desperately needs it. She has taught me what it means to #bekindinreallife.

Kindness in our home means we take turns. Everyone helps when I'm cooking or baking in the kitchen, and there are always at least two kids on the kitchen counter or standing on a chair to help mix or flip or pour. 


Kindness in our home means we laugh A LOT. Because treating one another the way we would like to be treated allows everyone to be themselves and feel confident in their own skin. Dance parties around here are a daily occurrence. "ALEXA!!! PLAY SHAKE IT OFF BY TAYLOR SWIFT!"-Juliette




It also means that when our family circus (oh my gosh, are those ALL your kids?!) is out in the real world, we treat every person we meet with respect and love.
Kindness means we all recognize that we're growing and changing every day, and we are not perfect. I try to fill my kids heads with, "Oops! Mommy totally forgot! I'm so sorry. Will you forgive me?" and "Oh no! Mommy made a big mistake! I guess I'll have to fix it, won't I?"


My first baby-bump picture!!!!
Thanks to the example my sister has set, and perhaps most importantly, I am kind to myself. I recognize now that my thoughts and my words become the thoughts and words of these sweet babies I'm trying to raise. I try my best to never even think bad things about myself, which is really hard! But I do feel like after 8 years of mom-ing, it is certainly much easier than it used to be!

The Be Kind Company launches today! If you want to hear more about Taryn's journey through recovery, and see how her experience can help you face challenges in your life, follow her blog...Small Steps. And if you want your kids to look this stinking cute, while also sharing this important message, head to The Be Kind Co.com. 

And for real, remember to BE KIND. 

July 19, 2019

Old Grateful

Our most favorite stop in Yellowstone- the Grand Prismatic Spring
Traveling with my family around the country was a huge part of my life growing up. We camped, stayed at KOA's, visited National parks and museums, and made sweet memories I still carry with me. But most importantly and completely unexpectedly, all of this adventuring instilled in me a deep love of the outdoors, nature, and an overwhelming desire to share this love with my own family. 

I planned a trip to Yellowstone for us the day after school got out. There was just one tiny problem- a major cold front blew through the area, and it actually SNOWED there on the first day of summer (the day before we arrived). So I read up on how to keep small children alive in sub-zero temperatures in a TENT. A lot of people recommended we warm up water bottles and put them inside sleeping bags. I'm pretty sure my kids would open those lovely water bottles to quench their sudden middle-of-the-night thirst, spill them, and then they would be freezing AND wet. Holy nightmare.
warm water bottles
I liked the idea of a tent heater much better, but the tent would need to be ventilated and the heater would have to stay far away from flammable sleeping bags. I thought we might be able to manage that, so we bought a little tent heater. 
I packed the kids' winter coats, hats, and gloves, and Kyle bought them real sleeping bags (because those cute ones for sleepovers at my moms would definitely not cut it).

For those poor parents who unexpectedly find themselves in a similar situation, here's what worked for us during those sub-zero nights:
The kids ended up sleeping two to a sleeping bag, with a second sleeping bag on top, each with two pairs of pajamas, fluffy socks, and their snow hats. Combined with the tent heater...TADA!
We finally got to our KOA just outside of the West Yellowstone entrance just after 7 pm. I asked Kyle to get the fire going right away so that I could prepare hobo dinners while he set up an enormous 16 man tent. That poor fire went out over and over and over again... I think the wood we bought was really young or something! The whole time Kyle struggled to set up the tent alone and we both struggled to keep the fire going, Elle cheered us on with:
"You're doing such a great job!" 
"Wow, that looks great!"
"You're working so hard! I'm proud of you!"
It helped calm our stressed-out nerves, and made us both laugh when we really needed to! It was 10 pm and dark by the time the tent was finally set up and our really delicious dinners were finished.




eating dinner by the light of a lamp!

The next morning, I went to our duffel bag to put on my tennis shoes. Now....Kyle and I have matching black Nike's with a white swoosh. It turns out, I had packed my right tennis shoe and also KYLE'S right tennis shoe. So I walked around all morning, making breakfast and chatting with our camp neighbors, wearing two right shoes, one of them four sizes too big. Kyle and I laughed so hard! Luckily, there was a little country store a few miles away, where they sold Yellowstone souvenirs, milkshakes, moccasins, cowboy boots, and a single pair of blue women's tennis shoes...which I obviously purchased! Disaster averted.

After everyone enjoyed a milkshake, we set out for Old Faithful and the Upper Geyser Basin. My kids could NOT get the name right. They called the world-famous geyser Old Grateful, Old Thankful, and occasionally by its correct name, Old Faithful.

Their first elk sighting!


The kids loooved the geysers and beautiful, colorful pools. It was like they couldn't see enough or say enough about each one we walked past. 
"Mom, what's this one called?!"
"Mom, look at this one!" 
"Mom, this one is boiling!!" 
They would've walked forever, on a quest to see what we called "the rainbow pool" at the top of the basin. But the mother in me knew that we still had to trek for miles all the way back to the car, and my kids were exhausted. So we turned around and headed back to camp for a much earlier bedtime than the night before!  

Juliette kept saying, "I can't believe we're really camping!!! This is the best trip EVER!"
s'mores every night...








The following day, we planned to take the kids swimming in a river, where a hot spring flowed in and the water felt as warm as a bath. However, over night, the forecast had changed, and we were up against a huge freezing rain and thunder storm. We opted instead to hurry to the Grand Prismatic Spring before the storm hit, and then the Grand Canyon of Yellowstone. London was really really upset because swimming in the river was what she was most excited about. BUT when she saw this amazing blue pool, she forgot all about the swimming!
The Grand Prismatic Spring was THE BEST.
We're a family of aggressive cuddlers.






Juliette and Elle were really concerned about Dad's messy camping hair.
It started to rain as we left the Grand Prismatic Spring. We drove for about forty minutes through the park, toward the Grand Canyon of Yellowstone. I wish I would've recorded the kids' reactions when they saw this magnificent waterfall. They were so amazed!



It was still raining that evening when we exited the park, and I was not about to cook dinner over a fire in freezing rain!  So we went to a fancy pizza place in West Yellowstone for our first non-camping meal in three days. It was so warm and relaxing and actually delicious. The kids all colored their place mats and were really proud of themselves.

We ended the evening with homemade ice cream from a cute little creamery stand because I wanted some and I'm clearly insane. We were all shaking and freezing to death and it was still raining- and it was totally worth it!



The twins are exceptional pancake makers.
 My take from this wonderful adventure:
#1. It's all worth it. All the preparations, the packing, the planning, the meal prep, the driving across the country with four kids, the sleepless nights in a tent---e v e r y t h i n g.  So get out there and make really wonderful memories with your kids! The look on their faces when they saw their first bison, or each and every geyser, or when we made our meals together over the fire, it was worth every single effort put forth by me and Kyle.

#2. Tent camping is hard. We should rent a trailer next time.

#3. I am beyond grateful for my sweet, hilarious, fun, intelligent, curious, adventurous, and really GOOD kids. How did I get so stinking lucky?! (I'm not crying. You're crying.)

#4. I like doing life with Kyle.


Now, where should we go next?! I want to start planning for next summer! I'm thinking the Carlsbad Caverns might be nice...